I know you are gone…

Run away, run away,
Jump the horizons and fly over oceans,
Blaze over valleys and cross the jungles,
Don’t turn around to find me behind,
My hand won’t rise to wave you goodbye.

The winds of change won’t transform me,
The gushing stream won’t flow me,
Changing seasons won’t make a difference,
Nor will change the gap made by your absence.

Life keeps flowing, so be it,
Relationships keep pouring, so be it,
Tears keep rolling, so be it,
So what if you ditched me?
I still think of you and so be it.

I’ll wait for you, so what if you never return,
No longer will I cry, you’ve drained my eyes dry,
I wish you happiness wherever you are,
But your place in my life will forever be vacant.

Run away, run away,
Jump the horizons and fly over oceans,
Blaze over valleys and cross the jungles,
Don’t turn around to find me behind,
My hand won’t rise to wave you goodbye.

Where are you?

Have my words plundered you,
Please speak coz your words are due,
I’d rather hurt myself before I harm you,
I’d rather silence myself before I silence you,
Your silence is chilling,
Please lady, the wait is killing,
No more can I pretend to be cold,
Coz my being is uncontrolled,
Your words keep me breathing,
And your presence gives me a feeling,
Of someone by my side to hold me,
Don’t disappear making me a cold dead tree,
Coz the days will fall by like dried leaves,

And, someday I’ll collapse.

I Disagree.

For today I disagree with you. I am sorry to say that, but it’s a fact. An old saying goes as “pain is reduced only when shared”.

There is a feeling, which I can identify as smiling tears. Babes, don’t get me wrong, but it’s just the way you look at things. I also see them as the tears in the eyes of girl when she leaves the home of her parents to settle her life with her life-partner she sheds those tears, which I call as the smiling tears.
Sorrows are always waiting at the next turn to take you down but don’t let stop your journey towards the joy that’s waiting patiently at a distance.
Today, I wish I could sit next to you and talk to you as we did once. The memories are still fresh in my mind of that rainy evening and will cherish them, forever. Can’t we meet the same way we did?

Give me a chance

Ask value of a month to a lady who’s given birth to a premature child.

Ask value of a second to a sprinter whose lost by a fraction of a second.

Ask the value of a relationship to a man whose feelings were never understood by anyone, ask me.

Life’s been a roller coaster ride for me all my life. People open-heartedly took me in and harshly slammed the doors of goodbyes on me. I never begged to anyone to stay with me. Coz I knew it was my need and not theirs. Neither anyone bothered to nurse my injuries nor did I let the cloth on my injuries leave them open coz I did not expect any mercies or sympathies. No wonder today I find myself being a loner in this world surrounded by hoards of friends all around, round the clock. But I don’t regret it; it’s better living a loner than dying in the crowd of hypocrites.

Only you made me turn around and call out for you to stay back. What made me do that you know very well. Babes, I need a girl who knows me. Who understands me. Who can tell why and what made me do something. I want a girl stays with me for life and beyond. Who accompanies me on my every journey.

I always tell myself, forget the past and look at the future. There lies no dark tunnel but only bright sunshine. And if there comes any I’ll break it down for you. All I can say is “Please believe me”. I love you babes. I really love you.

I am dumb.

We never talk but our words do convey us our feelings. I always wonder why I get a second thought before calling you or even messaging you just to know how are you. It’s only your words that help me know you still survive just like me. But you very well know that you understand me better than I understand myself. You exactly know what I am going through but I can only guess because I am still not sure if you are talking to me.
You know me, I can’t read between the lines and I will never be able to. Because I can only read the feelings in your eyes, just like a baby. And this baby is dying to know if he belongs to you or is an orphan.
The answer scares me but I am no more afraid to swallow the pain of your disapproval. But the pain of this restlessness is going to definitely kill me. So please please please please please please please please please please, speak it out.

I want to know. I prefer being an orphan and seeing the world than dying of wait.

Friend lost Forever

You lied on the floor,
Not even noticed me standing at the door,
I came beside you and touched your feet,
Did you feel it or I just touched the white sheet?
I deeply surveyed your naughty face
That mischievous grin of yours, I couldn’t trace,
I stepped back and joined the rest of the crowd,
A deep chill went down my spine,
As a harsh sound in my head shouted out aloud,
“He is gone, he’s dead and his soul has escaped,
Can’t you see him with white cloth he is draped?”

On your final journey I walked behind you,
What else can I do? I had no clue,
Numb eyes all around, tears making new ways,
And my eyes stuck on your face for that last gaze.
The flames filled our world and you were one with it,

I lost a friend forever, whom I’ll never meet.

Look I m Happy

Look at me; observe very closely, does my face say anything. Anything at all. Does the smile on my face make you think I am sad? Do the deep dimples on my cheeks look shallow? Do my cheering eyes appear numb? Hahaha.

Don’t keep your eyes locked onto me, coz I can’t pretend for too long. I wish I could hide my face in the darkest of the holes coz I don’t want to show up my weakness. Come, look closely into my eyes and my weakest point brings itself to the fore, it’s you.

The ring or the beep of a message on my mobile still enlivens me with your thought just to let me down after a look at the screen.

I don’t know what I should term this urge of mine to be with you. Friendship won’t justify my feelings and love won’t suffice it.

What you have for me I don’t know and I no more care. Coz sometimes I prefer resting my head on the shoulders of destiny. Everyday I try hard to remove every thread from my mind that binds my thoughts with you but the yarn seems to have no respite from spinning my feelings for you.

But look, yet I’m happy.